forgive me, i’m far too shy
the reason hello’s quickly turn into goodbye’s
but i walk away heavy with unsaid words
they twist and turn while i cling to my safeguards
i whisper lies to myself i can’t seem to shake
even when i know their intent to break, break, break
all the words i can’t express
or maybe what i’ve tried to suppress
you’re saying them better than i ever could
my encumbrance, you’re helping relieve what i could not have withstood
so please keep going
singing, writing, strumming
and i’ll continue shouting
all my thoughts that need puking
i’ll press my foot faster on the gas to make it through the light
your desperately reverent songs are all that’s choking my anxiety tonight
you travelled far and long
i came alone, knowing soon you would be gone
i needed to close my eyes
dance, clap, and scream away all the pain inside
this year i learned it’s ok to be sad
all the while, i will still fight each day to be glad
if you would please reach through my speakers
and place an arm around my shoulders
gently whisper, “you’re going to be alright,
i won’t leave you here alone tonight”
i won’t press that small black square
you help brush away my wild hair
behind which i’ve been mildly hiding
swollen eyes from nights of crying
all of this to say:
thank you for being the friend i needed
the prayers i couldn’t form, you requested
all the distortions i have believed
you help reverse them while i grieve
you’ve been the rescuer
amidst this broken hour.
